Recollect.

Hey Guys,
I took the past few days as a break and did things completely my way.
I realized that my need for a break was something I had to pay attention to, I also realized that I didn't quite really need vacation to do things that made me happy.
Yes, its important to stay focused on your work and stuff but I feel that a few years down the road, hell a few months for that matter. Will I really remember the assignments I submitted, the nights I spent doing them?
Before I know it when I look back again I'd realize that this time at this moment will have passed away and I'd spend moments wishing I would have done something else that actually made me happy.
Soo I guess what I'm trying to say is, for all you workaholics out there, take a deep breath, sort out your priorities and once in a while- forget the world. It's okay
This is your life, a life that is built solely on your decisions. Take a risk and go for something that you know will make you smile.
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What will you do?

Hey Guys,
So I was with my friends and we were going through some personality quizzes. There was one that I really really liked, I know most of them have no truth in them but it was just interesting to see who would pick what.
Anyways, here's the gist of it-
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 So you've been with a guy/girl for a long long time and you really like them. After about 7 years he proposes and you say yes and you're actually really happy. You're engaged and all that, soon enough its the wedding day. The wedding is in a few hours and you're in a room alone. Suddenly, you feel a different feeling hit you and you just know it's not the last moment panic, its something much different. You suddenly feel that you don't love this person and you just know that it's not this person but some random person you met the day before in the grocery shop. The feeling is so strong, you just know it and there's no denying it. What will you do?

a) Proceed with the wedding and after a few months or so break it off.
b) Ignore the feeling and proceed with the wedding.
c) Leave a note, run away and then figure out what to do
d) Run away and go straight to the grocery shop person
e) Tell your closest friend and run/ RUN
f) Have a talk with him, if he stops you, RUN.
g) Have a talk with him, if he stops you, stay.

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MEANINGS-

If you chose
a- you are the kind of a person that cares about what people say. It may not even be people you actually know but society in general. You don't want to embarrass the person but you also care about yourself.

b- You are a person too practical and systematic. You don't believe in these kind of stupid, sudden feelings. You think it's too late to make a move and so you don't try and even if you do, you believe the people around you are more important than you, yourself.

c) You work on instant feelings. Quite the opposite of a person who chose b. You don't believe in planning things, whatever happens- you'll manage and you usually do.

d) You are a person full of passion. You believe in all sorts of magic and for you its a good thing. You believe its never too late and for you it somehow always works out too.

e) You do care about the one you thought you loved but at the same time you know it's not right for any one of you either way. You tell your friend because without them you know you would chicken out, you need that person to reassure you and then you can face the world.

f) You are also a practical person. You care about the people you love but you also care about yourself. When you talk to him, you do so because you feel just leaving would be a move too weak and weak is one word not used to describe you. At the same time though, you are well aware of what you want.

g) Your inner feeling will bring you to try to reason with him/her but then you'd think its a feeling too stupid and just proceed with the wedding because you could never imagine yourself ruining someone like that.
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That's all guys!
I chose option e because I know I would have sort of a 'should I? or should I not?' sort of feeling and I would definitely end up telling my sister who I know would support the running away.

Hope you liked it!
Even if you guys don't believe in this, it's a fun little thing :P
Cyaa

PS- ITS THE SECOND MONTH OF 2014 ALREADY?!?! :O

15 Random Facts About Me-

1) Sunlight is love.

2) I've had frequent panic attacks since I was 8

3) I can last on french fries for almost a year.

4) I'm highly claustrophobic.

5) I've been with my first boyfriend for the past nine years.

6) I study best when I have loud music and something to eat all the time.

7) My grandfather, mother and sister are all empaths.

8) I tend to sleep when I'm emotionally hurt, eat when i'm irritated and run when I'm depressed.

9) I hate, hate, hate crying in front of anyone

10) I have about 9 different blogs, all on different accounts with all different concepts. This one is probably the only one where I just be myself.

11) When I first meet a person, I act extremely ignorant, self obsessed and rude just to avoid more people, more drama.

12) I've never ridden a skateboard without beatboxing.

13) The last time I fought with my sister was eleven years ago. We just really get along, I guess.

14) I have a memories drawer in my cupboard which no ones knows about. I store a little piece from whenever something special happens and drop it in there. However, I have never brought myself to actually go through it because it sort of scares me for some reason.

15) I strongly, strongly believe that everything happens for a reason.

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Hey guys,
I know this was brief and a self-centered post but I felt like I should do one of these. I feel like you guys barely know me. Sooo, I'm Ericza Bolt, my parents wanted to name me Erza but they thought it was a name too graceful for me. I needed something more 'ericza' ish. And I love my name. Hmm. What else? I play the piano, drums and the guitar but I really can't sing. Or cook. Oh and the day I turned six I realized I could really fly if I wanted to- and so I decided to run.

Things that piss me off.

Since I'm already in an irritated mood, why not?

1) Burps
I don't even know but this has to be number one on the list. I can't stand them. I just feel disgusted and I force myself to not breathe because...I don't want to inhale their burp. My mind works in weird ways.

2) Crossing roads
Holy Macaroni, this gives me soo much anxiety and I do this weird thing that if I hear a car on the right side I look to the left because in this movie that I saw when I was about 3, the guy says that it's better not to look death in the face...Don't judge me okay?

3) Hugs, cuddling, holding hands
Okay all my girl friends get really irritated because I absolutely hate that kinda stuff and me being a girl, I'm supposed to be all 'OOh it's so cold, can we cuddle?' but honestly, I rather die of cold than cuddle or hug. Oh and holding hands? Who even invented that? And walking while holding hands? Jeez. It's like I can't even walk with freedom anymore, I'm stuck to you and your hand sweat.

4) Math
You knew this was coming. Do I even need to elaborate?

5) Untied shoelaces
Just, just tie them already. Why do you have to walk around while your laces drag on the floor, dipping in water, dirt and all kinds of things. And then the little 'Oh!' when you almost trip when someone steps on them. ERMAHGERD.

6) Traffic noises- 
Anxiety, anxiety, anxiety. And I already have panic attacks quite frequently, traffic noises just make them much worse- makes me feel like my world is a chaos and nothing is settled.

7) The Fake Tomboy Crisis
Okay, is it just the girls around me or is this like a new thing? A 'tomboy' girl is apparently much more 'cooler' and 'better'? Now that isn't the problem until every girl around me decides to pretend to be one when I know they are far from that- IT KILLS ME. Why can't you just be your own goddamn self?

8) Chipped nail-paint
Ah. We all get lazy here. Let's be real, I have some chipped nail paint at the moment but every time I look at it, it gets me a little upset and irritated and then I do this thing where I try to peel it off using my teeth. Yeah, never works. Idk. Is it just me?

9) The sound of typing
Specially, when I'm trying to sleep. I can sleep with the loudest music on the planet, with all the lights on, with every single person talking but the sound of typing? It drives me a little crazy.

10) People in general
Okay, don't get me wrong. I love people. But only like 5 to the max. I always thought that it was clingy people who I didn't like but then I realized that every person who I'm supposed to be close with (bestfriend, sister, close friends) they all require time which means texting, calling, spending actual time. And it's a fair deal. But thing is I might actually like you, but I really can't spend more than 3 hours with a person until I get irritated. (excluding my sister). Oh and texting and calling? That's one thing I just can't. No matter how hard I try I just always forget or I'm not in the mood. I dont know, I guess I just like spending time alone more. #Thethuglife

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That's it guys, I'll post a 'Things that make me happy' too because now I just sound like a negative, depressed soul. Don't get me wrong though we all are different and we all have our own opinions and our own pet peeves, the language I used might sound more aggressive but I was just depressed because work tomorrow
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Cya! 

Don't want to go.

Hey Guys,
I'm having one of those days.
I'm having one of those moments where I feel like I would do anything in the world, I would agree to any proposition- I just don't want to go to work tomorrow. I really, really, really don't want to go. The worst part is I have no idea why- the day tomorrow isn't half as bad as to what the rest of the days have been, I do have some unfinished work but I could stay up the night and finish it (which I have to do either way) I just for some weird reason want to stay at home and sleep or just do nothing and listen to some music and read a book.
I guess I just really desperately need a break.
Earlier today, I went back to my first post on this blog. Vacation's were heaven *_*
Honestly, I can't wait for summer vacations, the thought of getting another vacation is quite literally what's helping me get up every chilly morning and go.

PS- I'm probably gonna write a few more posts where I just rant. Don't worry- I'll delete them before sleeping. 

Workout Routine

Hey Guys,
I thought about sharing my workout routine as I decided to change it up a little recently. Keep in mind, this is all aimed towards long distance running and apart from this routine I make sure to have proper meals, at least 8 hours of sleep and 9 on days that have a harder routine and around 8 cups of water on a daily basis.
I also switch between week one and week two because lets be real I'll probably give up if I had that sort of routine every week.

WEEK ONE-

MONDAY- Plyometric Workouts ( Improves running as well as tones your legs because I don't want to have the completely muscular sort of legs)

I found a video that pretty much describes what I do- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p9dCAxPLzzs

TUESDAY- Long Distance Run- (Semi- Recovery day. Couldn't have had this as a full recovery day because the next day is hard workout) Also, try to keep your strides as long as possible if it's long distance.

WEDNESDAY- Interval Running or Pyramid Intervals (Increases stamina) Keep in mind to switch between the two intervals every Wednesday depending on how you feel. The pyramid intervals burn the living hell out of me.  (Search up the two intervals if you're not sure- it's important to have the right technique. 

THURSDAY- Slow jog or take day off and jog on Saturday (Recovery Day)

FRIDAY- Walk or jog depending on Thursday (If I decide to take rest on Thursday, I'd jog on Friday if I jog on Thursday, I'd walk on Friday) 

SATURDAY- Rest- Squats, Lunges, Push ups, Crunches depending on Thursday (Full Recovery Day- Let your muscles have a full day off but make sure to do a set of these exercises to make your run better on Sunday, these will also make your posture better while running and not tire you as much)

SUNDAY- Walk- Short Sprints- Walk- Short Sprints (Focusing on speed)

WEEK TWO-

Any one day to take rest- the other days will be a normal jog. 

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Apart from this- make sure to have a good posture, hydrate yourself and obey the two day rule. (If your legs seem to pain for two days, take two days off. If the pain does not go away even after two weeks- visit the doctor)
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Hope this was helpful in some way...I guess.
Cya! :D

La-la-la life.

Hey Guys!
I was trying to sleep and obviously, my brain suddenly started to think about the most random, deep stuff. And then I thought about expectations. How many times has that word given me fake hope? but at the same time how many times has it helped me get through life?

I remember my first big 'expectations fail'. It's a bit too personal to share on the internet, but I remember thinking about the future all the time and I remember how it all seemed so easy and do-able. And then I watched myself grow up, watched my grin fade away as I saw everything fall apart, I watched myself realize how it was nothing like what I imagined. It stuck with me for a while. It stuck and it refused to let go.
I suffered, life went on, and one day out of the blue- I dealt with it.
Life didn't wait no matter how much I pleaded. It was as though life was the director of a school, no matter how much a student was going through how often does the director come to know about it- they continue running the school even if the student has no will to go.
It is up to you how much you want to suffer because there is literally no one waiting for you. It's you alone. And it's completely up to you how much of your time you want to waste sobbing over one incident. You can either deal with it, find the positives and make most of it or hate everything and be depressed.
After that incident, when reality finally hit me, I realized that nothing remains the same. I realized that this moment is inevitable, this moment that you are living is unique- this moment and you- are precious. Think about your life right now- think about each person who is part of it. Think about the people who once were. At some point, they changed- for better or worse. And there is literally nothing you can do about it because you, yourself are changing every second. That's what life is. It's okay to feel bad, it's alright to miss and it's completely normal to feel pathetic about yourself once in a while but remember the wind will keep blowing, the sea will keep crawling to the shore and at some point the ache will wash away and you'll be alright.