Losing

Hey guys,

I was having quite a depressing day. I was somehow having that numb, sad feeling all night and I really couldn't figure it out. I finally realized why. A few days back, I ruined and I mean completely destroyed a friendship that didn't seem like it mattered anymore. But goddammit, it clearly never did leave the back of my mind and hell, it mattered more than I could comprehend at that time. Anyway, this writing was inspired by that. 

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In the lives that we all have lived we have all had our moments of winning and achieving. You probably still remember that first 'big' accomplishment. Or not. Maybe that first was replaced by many others. Others that seem greater now when you look back, maybe that first is no longer remembered, maybe it's lost under the piles of new years and new things. Losing things however, they linger on for quite some time. Like a warm water droplet that traveled along your arm slowly turning colder as it got near your underarm and finally under your sweater in a cold weather. You then probably changed your sweater in hopes that you won't feel uncomfortable by the cold anymore but you probably ended up falling sick anyway. Laying on your bed, you probably cursed that one ice cube you put in your milk that other night or that afternoon swim your gut never allowed but went anyway. You probably never did point your finger at that water droplet that seems to have made its impact so long ago now.

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Oh also, I'm calling this person back. I need this person back in my life no matter what. There's no way I'm leaving things unsaid this time. If you guys have something like this going on in your mind, screw the second thoughts and go with your gut feeling.

If not, take this post as a sign.